Welcome to PC I hope you find everything that you're looking for. It takes a lot of courage to post on here. I have similar feelings about therapy, and I actually did EMDR for a little over a year. I hope it does exactly what you need it to do. Therapy really can work wonders And as far as relationships go, a lot of times we see what we want to see in the beginning of them, and only as time progresses do we finally see the relationships for what they are.