i know how you feel when i was about 14 i got dumped by this guy that i was in love with, he was suicidal and when he dumped me i started cutting myself i kept doing that til i met my next boyfriend and we were together til the middle of last year when he dumped me i started smoking when that happened to relieve the stress and it stopped me from suicidal thoughts then i got with this oda guy and he hurt me really bad and i realised that i needed serious help so i quit smoking and stopped self harm and started talking to peoplle and that has helped me alot