I've always done it. But this week I've barrels hyper aware of me doing it.
"it" being trawling traumatic stories and then feeling a compulsion to blurt them out to family/work colleagues/T.

I'm aware of reactions. Normally blank bored faces or confusion.

Then I feel so alone with the feeling of trauma inside.

This week has been no different, apart from my feeling like I'm watching myself do it.

I've had a conversation with T before where is I see a bad car crash I have to look. The same compulsion is there. City have to look.

T mentioned "ambulance chasers" where people actually see an emergency vehicle on its blues and have to follow it.

She says it's a way of trying to get the feelings one is feeling inside to the outside. Watching trauma rather than feeling it.

I guess my blurting out traumatic stories is the same.

Anyone else find themselves doing this?