I want to join a meetup and/or support group, but my anxiety is extremely high. I'm worried about how people will judge me, and I'm afraid I won't fit in because I'm too nervous to talk or get involved.. I don't know how to get over it, because I would absolutely looooove to join some of these social groups where they watch movies together, do physical activities, etc.. I just always push people away when I'm in an episode, or when I'm psychotic. Any ideas on what I could do?

DBSA would be so cool to join, except this one b*** who attends the meeting. I want nothing to do with her. She's treated me like trash in the past and she is truly an awful person. She has mutual friends with me on FB and I see some of her disgustingly hateful posts, which means she probably still treats people like trash. Also, her hatred has nothing to do with depression or bipolar in my opinion. (IDK if she even has bipolar or depression.)

She herself is trash and I don't want to be near her. She probably goes to NAMI, too, for all I know. I don't see the point in her going to support groups if she's the kind of person who treats people like trash.