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Originally Posted by Miguel'smom
I'm thinking real hard about IP but I don't think I can do that with this mess we're dealing with. I think my son's stress from me being away caused his "picking" to be worse. I'm still functional and just have to give the lamictal time. I don't see my pdoc for another 2+ months so we'll see. I just have to keep trying and pushing my expiration day back. Reminding myself Miguel would be so much worse without me around. If everything goes to hell when I leave for a week and I can't go IP because of them they wouldn't survive if I was gone. Besides I like my medication. I actually take it.
Today I ate better even had a glass of choc. milk. I'm between feeling stuck and not caring.
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If you are considering IP, I think you should do it, despite your son's picking issue and your H's birthday and MI. He won't have much to celebrate if you have to go to the ER, if your electrolytes crash, or your heart. Don't know about you, but the ED was very hard on my heart, and that was when I was 19, 20 years old. Your family can and will survive on their own. Is there no way to see your pdoc sooner? That seems like a long wait when you are not doing well. But if you get sicker, it will take longer to recover, affecting your family even more negatively. All you need is to pass out somewhere or something.
Even the not caring is concerning. You say you don't care but then you do about your family. If you want to care for & be there for your family, you have to care for yourself too, even if it means IP.
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