I'm having a lot of anxiety the last week or two. My sleep is messed up and I think I'm fighting some depression. I need to start my SAD lamp.

I am supposed to cut my klonopin dose a bit on Sunday. I'm nervous about this, partly because I'm going into it anxious (for no reason that is enough to stop my attempt at tapering) and partly because I am concerned how my body will react to the change if I'm already fighting anxiety to start with. Last time we tried to cut my klonopin dose I lasted 2 weeks but my pdoc told me to stop a week before I did. I have PRN gabapentin and it helps but I'm just unreasonably anxious about the whole thing. I felt confident the first time I tried and much less so this time. (In the past I've dropped benzos without consequences and stayed off for a while before circumstances put me back on.

Tomorrow my cat starts his allergy-proof food. I really hope this works for the price. The cat is the source of most anxiety. How can a 1 year old cat who has been taken care of with good quality foods, attention, etc. be in such a position? It's sad.

Hope others are having a calmer evening.