Yeah hiring a cleaner may be a little easier for me to accept vs an aid through my insurance. maybe thats something that would be worth the extra cash for us. It would be awkward but not as much as a home health aid.

Thanks for ideas and kind words. I think it would def be easier to just sick but found a medication that works and I should be doing better after a while. I just know thats going to also cause a lot of speculation. Maybe I'll dip my toes in and see how starting up the conversation goes.