It's hard to say. This may sound strange, but are there any positives you see from the suffering you endure? I ask because I may be weird, but I have had many times that I loved the contrast. The euphoria, and the passion, shocked, by being pulled down into an abyss, only to be lifted up again hours later or the next day. I find it fascinating when this happens...and it causes me to be really introspective. I read some articles about mixed states recently, and evidently they are more common than once thought.

The part I didn't like was the agitation and the outbursts in between states of high and low. I haven't experienced bad outbursts and high irritability very much at all since I've been on Lamictal for almost a year now.

Do you feel a lot of agitation during your mixed experiences?