I really hate this. This morning, I was happy, wanted to do tons of stuff, did write down a list of activities to do with my pre-teen daughter (our bond is not good, I'm too volatile for her, unreliable). Took a normal 45 minute walk (with the ED, I'd struggled with overexercise), a normal amount of exercising, not overdoing it. I wanted to buy everything under the sun online.

Took an Epsom bath soak. Laid down, infused some essential oil mix, realized I was hurting all over (stupid fibro).

This afternoon, for no reason at all, I suddenly just want to start crying. Skipped lunch making up that list earlier. Had green grapes & Cheezits for lunch Tired, depressed, anxious now. Thinking about money & the petty HOA violation we have. Stupid surgery scar 4-5" belly button up is hurting together. It hasn't hurt for months. I'd planned to vacuum, and vaccuuming really bothered it during the healing process.

Self-esteem in the pit. Feel like I can't breathe & am panicky. God, when do things get better?

I see the T tomorrow at least. I just want to burst into tears, and I don't even know why.