I went to see the endocrinologists today. my sugar was good and after they received test results on my thyroid, i know that will be normal too. in fact my physical inner body is well and healthy. too bad the brain doesn't know how to follow w/out help. I cried to my doc today. she wasn't use to it but i just told her the basics. she was very sweet and caring. I called the mental unit at the hospital today to find out what they do and to try and make a decision. she didn't call me back, hum. it was close to 5 so maybe she was already gone. I don't know about u guys but i find that mental health needs more help from the government. there is such a stigma attached to mh. i just get down thinking about it. after going out today i was extremley tired because i haven't been out all week. just laying in the bed crying. where do all those tears come from? my life as a child then teen- ager and on from there. i can't remember what happened yesterday but i can remember what happened years ago. I'm just so glad i can come here and ramble and let my feelings out. i just copy my post and put them in my journal then press submit. pj56