My parents didn't trust
Me when I was allowed home.
They phoned Fred from
Time to time to
Check up on me.
It was more to see
If I had been drinking.
They thought I was
More likely to do
Something stupid if
I had drunk a lot.
And I was still recovering.
And I did give
Them cause for concern.
I did still want to
Get drunk. And I
Shouldn't have been.
I wasn't well enough
To be drinking yet.
And it is immensely hard
When that is ALL
Your 18 year old
Friends seem to want to do.
A girl I was in with
Was taken back by
Ambulance countless times
When she drank too much
Before building herself
Back up to health properly.
I may become unwell
Again if I didn't
Give my head a rest.
Yet they didn't like
Having me in the house.
Like I was a loitering
Teen smoking weed
In the basement
Sponging off them.
But in reality
I was in recovery.
So that's why I
Had a blip.
You don't want to
Go back in there,
Asked the doctor?
For a minute I
Did think it would
Be better than hearing
My drunken parents
Spouting their hard knock
Nonsense about me
Thinking I was asleep.
But I said No.