Thanks. I appreciate your tip about TELL, I'll contact them. I still canīt and wonīt understand why my T did this. When I talked to her on the phone for a second time I asked her again about why she let me believe we could continue therapy for as long as I needed it and she told me she kept going because she was worried about how I was going to react when she told me we had to end therapy.
But thatīs not a valid reason for continuing to see me for as nearly twice as many sessions than she was allowed to. Whatīs even stranger is that she during this time said things like "20 sessions arenīt that much" and "we are going to continue, weīll see each other again after my vacation" and so on.
She didnīt held back but kept talking in terms like she had the freedom to continue therapy with me. She often encouraged me and our progress in therapy and then it all ends. I think thereīs more to this that she doesnīt share with me. I think she realised she doesnīt have the knowledge to deal with abandonment fears and similar and the session limit was just one part in this.
I feel so let down and so fooled. Iīve been in this so long, with this T about ten months and now Iīm back again in my grief, in my loneliness and my hopelessness.
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Originally Posted by Ididitmyway
I completely understand the way you feel and why you want to "ghost" her. I'd feel the same way, frankly. What she's done is a betrayal, and I don't care if that was done with good intentions.
But I do want to urge you to keep talking about it here. By the way, you may also contact TELL for additional support. Even though they provide support to people who were abused in therapy and your case doesn't fit that category, what your therapist did was still unethical and harmful. I think, they'd be supportive if you contact them.
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