When I moved in
With Fred, I took
The brunt of his foul
Moods that were
Like clock work after
Every single work day.
He smashed up my
House warming gift
Because of the stress
Of doing up the house,
I eventually concluded.
He complained that
His parents kept
"Chawing his head off"
By persistently asking
If our place was
Nearly ready. His
Younger sibling was
Looking forward to
Having a bigger room
And it was just cosmetic
Stuff with the house.
If the living room
Is done, crack on
With the bedroom
And you can move in
And do a bit at a time.
And Fred would snap,
They would have had
Him move in and squat.
But he was a 25 year
Old lad who had
Been working full time
Since 17 and he
Was from a big family
With a busy house.
Visitors coming and
Going at weekends.
My parents had
My neighbours but they
Didn't really do the
Tea and cakes visiting.
Fred would Say my
Mum And Dad were
So rude and ignorant
When we visited.
Not offering to make tea.
My mum sometimes
Not taking her eyes
Away from her phone.
Not asking me how
I was doing at work.
But he enjoyed
Seeing my Grand parents.
And I can see why
He would have been
Angry that I didn't
Accompany him to his grans .
I did offer more than once.
And he said it's ok
Because he wasn't close
And I never met them.
And I wasn't pushy
Because missing my
Blood father's mum
Seeing as I was still unwell
Was fresh in my mind.

Freds family were just happy
He was officially
Standing on his own
Two feet. They weren't
Trying to get rid of him.
They did however express
That they believed
In marriage before....
And I felt a bit
Of insinuation towards me
Being the guilty party there.
Because Freds Aunty,
My old pals mum,
Did gossip about me with her.

He was fortunate
To have had all
His cake while living at home.
He did whatever he wanted
Completely unrestricted. But
He couldn't have
Friends over. Not that
He wasn't allowed,
It just didn't work
As his house was
Too busy! His parents
Liked to be at home
And always there
For everyone. Freds room
Was dead centre of
The house. And his friends
And him all had
Money to go out at the
Pub or pictures all the time.
A trip to highlands vue
Is what all couple's
Would do around here.
Instead of drinking
Let's drive to the
Big cinema for a change

He Could come and go
As he pleased. Where
As I was in a different boat.
My parents didn't
Allow me the same freedom.
Even if I had not
Been through my ill spell.
They would have been the same.
My brother got it
In the neck when
He went out drinking at 18.
Not just me.

We were all set
To rent a flat anyway.
Freds house barely
Ever empty and me
Not getting much privacy.
We really needed
Our space and It had
Been three years.
Moving In together
Was the next step.