This probably belongs in another forum, but I've written about all the CPS stuff here the most, so that is where I am posting this.

I am having severe anxiety about being noticed and/or needing to talk to people who work at my daughter's school (haven't had to since & after the CPS case). She is a 5th grader, her last year of elementary school. The elementary schools tend to be small; the principal knows every child by name, you know a lot of the teachers, especially if they move up from a lower to higher grade, the librarian, the counselor, PTO members.

The fallout from the CPS case has me so anxious to do anything involving my daughter's school. I know the CPS caseworker talked to both my sisters and brothers-in-law (they told me); she talked to my pdoc and therapist (they told me when I asked). I am paranoid about who the CPS worker talked to at her school: probably the principal since she has been the principal since my daughter was in kindergarten and the school counselor, current teachers? past teachers? And if past teachers, how far past, like all the way back to kindergarten? What about teachers like PE coaches, the music teacher, the computer teacher? They do not change year to year.

This issue is bothering me SO much. I don't want to do anything where I have to interact with other adults involved in the school. But the principal is a workaholic, she is there every single school function, PTO meeting, etc.

My daughter's school has a fall festival coming up Oct. 21. I am so nervous about it. H says I need to get over these anxieties and start jumping back in. Soon they have a Latin heritage dance. Semester awards. Competitions. The school spelling bee (daughter has been in it 2 years in a row, and odds are good she will be there again), breakfast with mom, 5th grade elementary school graduation, OMG, the list goes on forever.

I don't know what to do. How to get over these anxieties, how not to feel judged by anyone the CPS caseworker may have talked to.

It already panicked me when I had to pick my daughter up early one day for throwing up. Another day, I had to bring her a longer dress. Though it was in the dress code, my daughter's super-strict/semi-mean teacher deemed it too short. I had panic attacks upon entering the school both times, and that was luckily not even running into the school principal.

How do I get through this?