Thanks. Yes, perhaps but as she never even thought of firmly establishing she could go beyond the session limit I think she acted careless as she must have understood how this might end.
I donīt think she planned to fool me but in a way she still did as she didnīt just exceed the session limit but she also almost every time said things that were connected to future therapy. Also, I canīt see how a therapist can be so worried to tell a client therapy has to end so he or she just keeps going. Iīve understood my T probably has little experience from longer therapies and she said they had never had such a case within their congregation.
But as I see it there would have been solutions to this, itīs perhaps too much to ask but I think she could have seen me outside her regular working hours for like four or five times.
Iīve always known I need a longer therapy and to feel safe within therapy but thatīs more or less impossible to reach unless you can pay for your own therapy. Iīm like crippled by this experience right now and I just cry and at the same time as I miss my therapist I also dislike her for what she now did.
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Originally Posted by Anne2.0
I wonder if it was a situation where she thought she could convince the higher-ups to continue, perhaps it wasn't she was trying to "fool you" but she deluded her own self. It's certainly still her responsibility and of course it's painful but it seems like she was at least trying to be helpful. I still tend to think you are better off now than 20 sessions ago, but I can understand that doesn't make it feel better than it does right now.
If you decide to seek therapy again, perhaps this will be an experience that teaches you something about what you want or need in a relationship. I know that getting therapy outside the public system is very difficult in your country, but I hope that if you want it, you're able to find something that works for you.
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