I just want to stick my head in a MRI scanner. Find out what's wrong with me. My mental health has improved noticeably but I'm still as anxious and depressed as ever since I was a child. I'm still jittery and shaky like before and I honestly don't know how to control this mess.

I'm this close to going to my college campus counselor for help because honestly I don't know what I can do from there. There is something wrong with me, and I think I can officially say I need medical help & advice. I can't do this anymore by myself... I'm in my 3rd year of college - my depression likes to come and hit me as it comes in a cycle - and for some reason, because of me, I'm failing 3 of my classes right now. It's terrible...