I invited a neighbor to join a ladies group I am in. I was really disappointed that she invited two of her close friends and I was completely left out. She didn’t tell me she was inviting them. Not only that, I found her friends to be annoying and obnoxious. They got really drunk and loud... and so did my neighbor. Now I don’t even want to be part of this group I am in... because of the obnoxious ladies who will now be coming and I now feel rejected by my neighbor who I was hoping to befriend. I am seriously regretting that I ever invited her.

I keep trying to join in various groups and make friends and I just never seem to make real friendships... I usually get along well with everybody... but while other ladies in the groups form personal friendships, I never do. I can’t figure out how people effortlessly connect with others. Eventually I leave the group and feel rejected and try another group elsewhere. I am starting to wonder why I keep bothering and it’s kind of embarrassing.

Another thing I do that I want to stop.... I am really committed once I join a group. I almost always show up, I help out, and I don’t back out at the last minute... Then I just end up feeling irritated that I invested so much time and energy.... I end up feeling a bit resentful...

It’s such a petty and minor thing in the grand scheme of things. So what if I don’t have any friends.... It’s probably because I am so serious and introverted and I just don’t loosen up enough... I can’t change who I am. I keep thinking I should be very happy that I have a home and a job and a good husband..... You can’t have everything in life. But I do feel like I’m missing out...