(((Guy)))
You did nothing wrong--a great wrong was done to you. I hope you have some supportive friends or perhaps a therapist or clergy person who can help you navigate rough waters. Unfortunately, none of us will be able to forget whatever our bad experiences were in the past; but we can learn and heal in ways that those bad times and bad people don't have such power over us in the present.
How's it going with your biological dad?
Glad you're finally safe. Take care. . .