It’s day 3 on Wellbutrin and my thoughts are more clear and organized but I’m still really super depressed. My chest is heavy and I have to try to make myself seem happy or at least neutral for my kids sake. I told them I’m not feeling well and think I caught a bug. This has basically how I have been handling really hard days for the last 6 months. I made it down to the couch so I can supervise and am letting them have frozen pizza and kimchi noodles for lunch and dinner today (I’m in Germany so we’re 6hrs ahead of the east coast USA). The doctor said after a few days I could go up to 300 mg by taking two pills in the morning but I’m hesitant. Even though it’s working a little I’m not sure more will be better am I’m going to be starting lithium next week and I want to be on the lowest effective dose of both so I don’t end up over medicated. Last time I was on this combo in 2002 it worked great and my final effective dosing was 600 mg (300 twice a day) lithium and 150mg Wellbutrin. My kids bring teens is a blessing I was stable on lamotragine when they were little and only mildly hypomanic in hindsite and mild depressed over the last 5 years off meds. Thank goodness this severe depression is now and not a few years ago when they still needed me to do a lot for them. As teens they can cook the frozen pizzas, do their laundry, get ready for school do their homework and are very self sufficient. So as sick as I feel it could be worse. I can rest on the couch all day while praising my kids and encouraging but not overdoing it myself to the point I break down. My depressions coming in wave like anxiety I get but depression and feelings of dread.