I’m not angry any more, just very hurt. It stings to know I was very unimportant to my family. I obviously offended my sister by saying an expletive to her. That was enough for her. My mom has not called me. It’s been a week and a half.

In the past, it’s always been me who was so upset by this that either I called or put my husband up to calling. I’m not calling this time.

I imagine they are gossiping about me behind my back. Tsk, tsk, T is such a whatever! It doesn’t bother me. I’m fine with this break from them. I know I played a part in this and they think it’s me who is the toxic one, so I can just slink away...fine.

Do other families act this way? Do “loved ones” stop talking to you when they don’t like that you have been hurt by them or put up a boundary? Are people really so disposable in other families?

I haven’t been back to stupid facebook either.

I’m obsessively reading DBT and psych articles. I’m hesitant to get into anything with anybody, avoiding any possible conflict. I know if someone does something to make me feel upset or attacked, I’ll have to go run to my DBT book for coping techniques.

But I am quite content with the alone time and all the reading. I’ve eliminated toxic people and only spend time and energy on better, healthier relationships. I am working on improving myself. It’s all good.