I’m so sorry... it is possible to heal and to have a good life still. That’s the best revenge, really. When you stop being victim to any abuse or remnants of abuse, when you take happiness by the horns and say enough is enough, I deserve to be happy and screw them, that’s an extremely empowering moment. So screw them, make your life the way you want it to be, live according to your own rules and be happy again.