Hi Mickey. So, this is something I myself have struggled with, and I am 35. I have heard that the issue you've presented, is actually a huge issue for many many artists. The economy is just not set up for us. I wonder if a good path for you, for now, would be to work some kind of trade and learn a skill. Something where you know you will make money (as long as you don't hate it). Unfortunately this is a sad truth for many artists. You also spoke of human services and I think you'd be wonderful with that as well if you can learn a way to deal with your shyness. But there are shy human service workers too. I once said to my therapist: "I probably couldn't be a counselor, because I dissociate," and she said "of course you can!!" Anyway, I hope you know that the problem you're experiencing, is not just you. It sounds like your country is a lot like the US in what you're struggling with, and here, it's the way the economic system was created. It does not serve all of us. I don't think you should give up art, or helping people, Mickey, if those are things you enjoy. We need things in our lives that we enjoy. You could work a job you are ok with (maybe not over the moon about, but ok with), and still make art and help people. You could make art and sell it as a side gig.

In terms of language, you said that it's not something you want to pursue for the rest of your life. What makes you think you have to do it forever? If you became an interpreter you'd be helping people a lot. I'm not saying you should do it. Just giving you an alternate perspective in case you hadn't thought of it before. If you do not want to do it, don't. Where do you see yourself happy? Perhaps, find something for now, that feels manageable. It won't be perfect, and everything comes with difficulties and unique challenges, even the things you like. Where do you want to go? What do you want to do? Can't remember if you're in therapy?