It's given me more energy and focus for things like reading. But it hasn't helped much with my forgetfulness and losing things, though I now am able to walk into a room, not remember why I was in said room, and then around 5-10 secongs remember why I went there. So maybe it helps some. I don't know.

New pdoc tacked on the ADHD diagnosis, but it was in the old pdoc's summation to him to watch that area, it could be ADD or ADHD. So I really don't know. I have so many diagnoses, and there are some I know I have, like bipolar, an eating disorder, panic disorder. But I don't know about ADHD; could be these meds causing me to not be able to concentrate. I suppose I might have some PTSD as I've had bad experiences, like 2 sexual assaults, a random shooting, nearly dying from an ulcer I never knew I had (sirens get to me now). I've had other crappy life experiences too, growing up with a strict, controlling, never-good-enough father, other stuff too, so I guess so.

What gets me is how much symptoms for different mental illness are so similar that a doctor might diagnose MDD and not BPII. Or diagnose schizo disorders instead of bipolar. And a lot of thoughts (at least for me) with eating disorders are pretty much depressive thoughts. I think you just have to get a good doctor, and have stability to taper. I am scared right now because of horrible stress in my life.

Perhaps I could have tapered with my old pdoc as I was stable through the Christmas holidays (December always being a bad month for me) into the start of January. She had mentioned she wanted to do it but was going to be retiring soon and working part-time a lot more, that it would be best to taper first, when I am more stable emotionally, and 2nd, when I have a pdoc who would have more appointments and frequent ones if needed, that she was not comfortable to be tapering first, when I'd only be stable a couple of months and second, that she would not always be there to see me through if I needed help during a med taper, so here I am again on tons of meds.

I do like the Adderall though as it boosts my mood in the morning, gives me more energy, and lets me concentrate enough to read. Whether I couldn't read because of meds or BP, I have no idea.