Ha. More like what parts CAN I get control of?

I cannot stop being severely anxiety, cannot stop worrying, cannot stop thinking terrible, frightening, intrusive thoughts. Cannot stop being exhausted. Cannot get control of my emotional reactions. Cannot stop feeling hurt by "friends and family" who gladly use my abilities to follow through on promises and to step up and stand up for them - but who are never there when I ask them for help. Cannot stop obsessing over upsets, decisions, worries. Cannot escape. Cannot stop feeling suicidal. Cannot stop regretting having taken decades of meds that don't do much except cause me to gain weight. Cannot be grateful for what I have, because all I truly have are my precious cats...and I thank God or whoever for them.