Disparrissant im terminally ill but it is a slow disease. Im on the downhill slope now with my body just breaking in so many ways. I face losing my house due to medical bills and other debt. I have just my 76 year old mother 1000 miles away to really talk to. Im alone dying slowly. My disease is a type of tautoimmune liver disease that attacks your whole body causing other autoimmune diseases. It has attacked my skin causing pigment loss and thick skin. It itches and hurts and feels like bad bad allergic reaction and panic/anxiety. Its hard to just get thru the day feeling so bad. Because my liver is bad i cannot take hardly any medicines including those to treat my condition or make me feel better or stop pain. I know my health is affecting my ability to handle alot of stress. But my son is just not compassionate enough to care or take that into consideration. I have been tough my whole life rejecting being treated like a sick person but now I need that. But what I said to him needed to come out just not the way it did. But i just couldnt hear any more negative things about me. One time this son was so bad to me after surgery we had to call social services and the worker told him that due to my health he could not treat me so bad and she would put charges on him if he didnt stop screaming and carrying on.he is volatile temper and blames others alot. In a way he has been weaponized against me and my other son. But he is my son and i love him at least as much as he lets me. I even apologized several times but he doesnt forgive people he expects perfect treatment. If he knew how sick i am cant he just talk about nice things? Just care about me or even talk about himself. Im in a bad way because i cant take my thyroid medicine and i need it bad. I cry every day. They told me to take it again even though it gave me chest pains and numb arm and ems was called. Im so afraid of all of this. I cant see to drive. I cant handle going anywhere i feel so bad. I wanna fix things with my son somehow. He is on a bad path. But he wont let me. Im not a psychologist. I dont know how to handle him though and as i said i have trouble with regular relationships so my head can only handle honest. Thx luvyrself you get it. Its so hard sometimes when your health is bad and you have an angry adult child who maybe is angry you are dying too. They are mad i cant be active like them and am poor. I cant do what they want me too. But i have to cut them off. I cant handle it. And they are already embarassed of me as im disfigured and not so smart anymore. They dont want to see me sick. They said so. My son said he would not be there for me its not his thing. Im fine with that but phone calls or something once in a while. Just pretending to care maybe. Isthat too much to ask?