yes... fear... and confusion....for host...

so sorry... should have explained that I am an alter...and when saying "I".... it was me.. an alter...

I have co-consiousness.. with some of the other alters.. My T... has pointed out to me several times.. that we are letting a 12 year old alter make some very grown up decisions..

Well... we as alters didn't realize that was happening... and it finally "sunk" in yesterday....

We... have a "12year old" at the helm... running some very important decisions in our life.. WOW... that scared the "pants" off of us - as the other alters... because we were so unaware this was happening...

and as my T has pointed out... that has to stop... I as an alter - have no idea yet how that is going to happen - the stopping.. but at least I am aware...