I have a few “ traits “ of BPD abandonment is my major one and also I don’t want to “ bother” anyone to the point I make myself physically sick.

Everyone with BP will have some it’s just the nature of the BP beast.

I feel all my feelings intensely but I just don’t meet the criteria for BPD according to both my T and Pdoc

I internalize most everything so I don’t lash out etc.