Tell your counsellor everything, including suicidal feelings. Your life is not something to be trifled with.

As for you having no reason to be depressed,
My first full blown depression hit right after I got my first apartment and away from my yelling father. You would think that would be the happiest moment of my life.

It wasn't.

I started showing classic signs of depression and then I wrote my first suicide note and left it laying in my apartment, unsure of what to do next. A friend found it before things went any further and confronted me and insisted that I get help. I'm glad he did, but at the time, I was like a six year old kid who thought she was going to get it when Dad walked in the door, because of what I had done.

If you're thinking of suicide and taking risks with yourself and self injuring, then your reasons for it are just as "valid" as mine are and it should be treated with just as much seriousness. I know you're afraid of medication, but what's the alternative?

You're too precious to lose and you're too young to die. Even if I'm not the most social person on the planet, I still ache when one of my friends gets like this and I worry about them.

Please, please tell your couunsellor what's going on. That's what she gets paid for, to help sort these things out. You won't be the first suicidal person she's helped and you won't be the last. This problem is far too common.

I'm glad you're on here with us to talk about it.