Don't mean to be rude. I sometimes go there to check quickly what people are talking about. I'm too pathetic to ever join conversation. I'll try to stop. I'm afraid to actually call my son. Often leave emails about how much I love him and sporting events that are on tv, etc. Worried if I actually called him, I'd screw up & tell him how I was actually doing. Not his fault that I'm a weak person. He rarely ever emails back. Don't think he looks at his emails very often. I wish a miracle would happen, & he could have another chance at a happy life. He's a really good person inside. ( This is why I don't participate in chat area. Can't stand listening to my thoughts. Unfortunately they're always there). My girlfriend has been gone a week to another state, away for 3 more weeks. I'm just as weak when she's here. Pray for relief for her and selfishly for me. Sorry if most of this I've said in the past. It never leaves my head.
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