Really depressed.I was so depressed today that I cancelled my therapy session.I knew the therapist would ask me what I was depressed about and if I said the past she'd just say the past is over,you can't change it,there is no point being depressed.If I say I don't know there is no reason to be depressed she will say it is up to you what you do do you want to waste time being depressed or focus on now.It makes me angry cos the pressure is on to make progress and I can't be ****ed.I want space to be unhappy all the therapist cares is that therapy can't go on forever,she was away for three weeks and I missed one and cancelled twice.I don't care,I don't feel my issues have been addressed deeply enough and I am still getting triggers and flashbacks.I am unhappy and doing what I can to manage it,like I cancelled therapy and went to the cinema.I really enjoyed the film.Right this minute I feel annoyed thinking about therapy and whether to carry on.The therapist referred me to the hospital,arts on prescription scheme ,over a month ago and they haven't even contacted me yet.