My Mom denied me all the rights that are supposed to be inherent for humans. She was so obsessed with her Mother and Sister that she vented those feelings on me.

My Nana was a second child, so you can understand why she would not tolerate Mom abusing her younger sisters. Nana must have been severe on Mom. Because of the sick dynamic of that family any chance that I would be a normal person was destroyed by the time I was five.

Mom had the philosophy that sibling hazing/abuse was normal. She started telling me that it was normal for my two-year older brother to pick-on me when I was about two to two and one-half. By the time I was five I was programmed to accept the abuse as normal. She took away my right to get mad a being constantly "mistreated" and all I could feel was grief.

I realized by the time that I was five that Mom and Dad would not interfere in my relationship with my brother so I began to internalize my feelings. I now know that I went though my childhood in a semi state of shock. I absolutely did not develop emotionally or psychologically like normal humans do. (My brother was a sadist relative to me.)

As an after thought: All it would have taken for one of my parents to help me, was for one of them to talk to me about my relationship with my brother. If they had gotten me to remove my feelings from him (I loved him.), I would not have been so emotionally damaged by his physical, emotional and psychological abuse. Of course there would have been the possibility, once I understood what my brother was doing to me, that I would have killed him.

It never entered Mom's brain that I would be made mentally ill from being abused by my older brother! It never entered her brain that toddlers are not supposed to be abused by anyone or anything! It also never entered her brain that the odds of her genetic lineage surviving would be reduced if she did not take parenting seriously. My brother was allowed to abuse me continually up until he went away to college.

I understand completely that parents can be mentally ill and have no clue as to what a child needs. We need to promote adults to read parenting books, many books, before they have children.