I've been stressing out. My grandma who I lived with died and we just laid her to rest today. Midterms are coming up for my college philosophy course and there's a lot of work I need to do for that. I've begun to hear voices that don't really come from anywhere again. ECT hasn't really helped with anything, maybe made things worse since I can't take my morning dose of clozaril the three times a week I have to go. I really need to apply for disability or find a job I can handle, too.