So far things haven't been too bad. Mostly, as far as symptoms go, I've only had some neck and shoulder pain/tension, sensitivity to sugar, and losing my mind when I'm mid menstrual cycle haha!

I'm doing okay though for the most part. Today was rough around the middle part of the day. It didn't help that I saw my psych nurse and she gave me the whole "you could be feeling better because of the meds speech (which I took as be careful going off because the meds could be holding you together lol)."

I get that. I think she just wants to make sure I don't end up in crisis or anything (and it's her work so of course she's just making sure I'm okay). That made me a little irritated (feeling like I'd never get free of the meds), but I still want to continue this non medication therapy journey. I'm just feeling like it's time for me personally. I'll still be getting treatment, support, self care techniques, community, etc. I'm just going to try moving forward without medication therapy while utilizing other mental health options.

But anyway, today was a little rough. I felt like I was starting to lose it, and I couldn't figure out what was wrong. Then it hit me...I'm mid menstrual cycle lol. I get this way every time like clockwork probably because withdrawal is affecting my cycle in some way. Crisis averted lol.

I'm better now. Writing here helps. Reading about and watching other people's withdrawal journeys (and their lives after meds) helps too.