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Originally Posted by piano97
There is definitely some overlap clinically but I think it's pretty clean-cut diagnostically. There was a time when I questioned my BD diagnosis a lot, and at one point was insisting it was BPD even though that didn't make a lot of sense. My therapist laughed a lot when I told her, and said no, not at all. Doctor said the same. Said everyone is a little bit axis 2 sometimes, but that it was not what was going on. In hindsight my goal of telling them that and insisting was because I didn't want to be on/need medication.
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Interesting. Thank you very much for sharing that. They have denied my assertion that perhaps I have BPD, too. Then they ask me about my "manias", my "depressions", my "episodes"....I keep thinking why? Why don't they just tell me that I really do have BPD? I don't know. Maybe I am truly terrified of having bipolar disorder. I read yesterday that the highest risk of sui is among people with BD. Also, that people with BD have a 10 to 20 year shorter life span than people with other MI's. Part of me doesn't care about that, except I am afraid of leaving my cats.
I'm frightened. I've become so reclusive. I'm getting more and more weird. Really tired of "hiding" who I am and feeling like letting my strange just hang out. So it's there; I'm there. Yes: it's me, it's who I am.
So what.
Go away. Leave me alone.
Let me be.