[QUOTE=eskielover;6303535]Ugh, you are too young to get stuck. I am stuck due to $$$$ but at least I am stuck in a historically rich town I moved to & am surrounded by close things to explore & do & I have no end of things I can be involved in volunteering locally. At 65 I am more involved in life than I was when working at me computer engineering career 70 hours a week.

Time to enjoy life now even if not traveling. Engage with the world around you[/QUOTE

Thanks everyone, I wrote this because I’m feeling panicky about just going to the airport. It’s an old demon - I used to travel for work and always got super anxious before going. It got worse as the exit hour approached. I’m traveling because if I don’t I feel I might just give up and become a shut in. I remember my parents during their senior years and they sat around and watched TV and just sort of died. I told myself I wasn’t going to do that and planned accordingly. But like I said its not that easy because of the intensity of just getting out there. I could stop traveling but that seems like a cop out from what I planned. I don’t know I’m just really disappointed with life (mainly because of the loneliness and the fact that I’m still dealing with my anxiety) but I gotta do something to prove that I’m still in the game - ugh!!!!