I hate sports. I dropped out of High School. I still have lots of friends, but not to be rude, but they can't help either. I'm afraid that if this therapist can't help me, then nobody can. I drink and smoke weed for comfort. Sure it helps for that split moment where I can get away from everything, but in the long run, everything is just snowballing. I've been letting the snowball get bigger for years and I need to stop it before that snowball kills me.