Whenever my pdoc increases my meds, I start feeling more balanced... after about 3 or 4 days...

I was scared to start on meds. I was scared to continue. When I was pregnant with my first baby, I weaned myself off my zoloft. But a year later, I was on Paxil.

Honestly, I don't see having to take meds as 'digging a hole you can't get out of.' Without the meds, I was incapable of dealing with life at all. I don't think that it is any different than having a heart condition and taking blood pressure drugs or chloresterol drugs or needing an orthopedic shoe or glasses.

I hate the stigma that perpetually hangs over mental illnesses. You can't just 'get over it' or 'cheer up' or 'just cope.' You wouldn't tell that to a cancer patient. Do what you need to help yourself.... take care of yourself.

Change can be frightening. I don't like change, and often I have to have someone 'push' me a little to do something for myself. But don't let someone talk you out of taking a med because they think it is an excuse for not having more control over your head.

Take care of yourself, okay?

*hugs*

Obsidian