I'm afraid I'm experiencing some major performance anxiety. I was preparing homework for my adult school class tonight and I'm in a panic. I thought the class was tomorrow, but found it was tonight. I just don't want to go. I'm only taking this particular class to satisfy my husband. It is supposed to be something that could help prepare me for an idea my husband dreamed up. One I'm not fully on board with. I had rather have taken French.

I am feeling sick because of nerves, but confess that I lied to my husband and told him I threw up. I kind of feel I could, at least mentally. Though the class should/would yield some helpful advice for what I'm taking it for, the instructor leads it as a TV/radio commercial acting preparation. I'm not good at acting at all, and feel way out of my element. The recordings I made based on the "homework" sound terrible! The potential recordings I will need to make would be totally different. They would be more conversational or educational, and less Tide clothes washing detergent advertisement or Tony the Tiger "Grrrrrrrrreat!" I'm also the only female in the class.

I don't always have performance anxiety. It's sort of selective performance anxiety. I'm usually quite confident one on one, but in front of groups it's much harder for me (some stage fright), unless I'm doing/talking about something I'm quite familiar with.