I write a lot. Pretty sure it is some type of hypergraphia though some times I have more control over it than others, and one time I just literally could not stop even if I wanted to.
It tends to play out in long emails I shouldn't type, send immediately, and boom! Too late! The last one got my mother very upset today.
I don't know what to do. Typing & the internet makes things so easy.
Tried to blog once, and I found that just too demanding and hard to keep up with; it made me stressed & anxious.
Maybe going back to longhand with a notebook and pen, I don't know. It would at least slow me down. I'm a fast typist, and I can't exactly email longhand without scanning stuff into the computer & going through a lot of hassle or going to at the post-office to send my tomes through the mail.
Please tell me I am not the only one shooting myself in the foot with hypergraphia.
Oh, and it's not bad enough that I write & send too many emails, but I can literally talk to family about any and everything nonstop, not realizing much of what I am spewing may be hurting said person and/or not not giving time or an opening for the other person speak much at all and for me to completely spew everything on my mind, good, bad, no censor.
It's not the meds I'm on right now; I had the hypergraphia that was nonstop for hours & hours when I got the BP 1 diagnosis (along with other manicky stuff). The only meds I was on at that time that I still take are Klonopin and Lamictal.
Go long-hand maybe with writing? But what about the nonstop, non-thinking talking stuff? How to deal with the talking issue?
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