Hi. I wish I could tell you how but, for me, my spiritual journey didn't start until I hit rock bottom with my drinking, then began attending AA meetings. From there I started to get into Buddhism. But I never would've gotten into Buddhism in the first place, had I not hit the rock bottom, so yes. Maybe start by drinking very heavily all the time until it destroys everything in your life? Just kidding :-)

There was a well known spiritual teacher named Osho whose teachings really inspired me, too. There's a lot of his ideas on the internet. Maybe you could look there?