Hi Lima,
My heart goes out to you,my m. was same.Can you
not TELL your partner BEFORE anything happens? Do every-
thing you can to steer clear of her and her poison. If you can,see if you can get this book: "Creating Love",by John
Bradshaw. The love he means,is self-love,and you will learn
much. As for your personal problems,I want you to remember this word:TRANSFERENCE; its something children do a lot of without knowing;they have transferred things from the parent that becomes embedded in their mind so
deeply,that the child actually thinks it is her/him! So try and
make the connections from past to present in order to stop
blaming dear self--IT IS NOT YOU-IT IS HER!
Deepest Respect,
BLUEDOVE