Hi, Limabean777,

Omg, bless your heart, honey! What a nightmare for you. I can relate, my mother was a narcissistic monster too. Do you have a therapist or someone you can talk to about this? Does your partner know how destructive your mother is? I would imagine he probably does.

I am sitting trying to think what the best thing I can tell you is. Over the years, what helped me along with being in recovery and psychotherapy, was to read everything I could get my hands on about subjects I needed to know.

Narcissist are so vicious, they wound so deeply, especially the ones who raise us because they begin their reign of terror from day one.

I am glad you are no longer under her roof. But, I understand your fears. She has gotten herself into your head; that means she goes with you everywhere. I do hope you find someone you can trust to talk to who can help you, honey.

Please, never stop looking for the answers you need. I have had to relearn everything I was taught under my mother's terror upbringing. And it took me years, but I got through it. Believe you can too, honey, please, believe it. xoxoxoxox