I haven't been here in a while. I've been too busy with life and now I'm in a hole. I feel so hopeless. I feel like it's time to break up with my boyfriend and I'm really sad. I love him but I feel like he's not trying anymore. It's not the same and this is not what I want. I can't talk to my friends or family because all they do is judge. I feel like a complete failure. I can't sleep, I can't eat. My life feels empty right now and I feel like going back to unhealthy coping mechanisms because the healthy ones aren't working. I can't afford to get help and my situation just seems really hopeless right now. I just need a listening ear to help me sort out my thoughts and emotions.