My mood is still bouncing around, up and down or doing something positive but thinking negative things about myself. Stupid stuff too. Like I ate breakfast and while eating told myself the banana and 2 pieces of wheat toast I ate were going to make me fat. Ugh. I need to eat lunch, not much appetite. Lately, I have not had much of an appetite, and it is not ED-related. I have been on these meds awhile and not experienced this (hypomania some?), maybe the fact that my allergies are bad, so I'm having to take Claritin in the morning. I'm also expecting my period in 5, 6 days, something like that, and it always makes me a bit nauseous & queasy. Not having the normal chocolate cravings just yet. My daughter just started her cycle last month; she could get another any day now, but I doubt she will be regular right away. Could happen, I guess.

When I did a presentation on pheromones in college (I was a microbiology student, so I had to take courses like life biology seminars), I learned that not just insects & other animals are affected by pheromones but humans too. It affects who you are attracted to, and of course, pheromones tend to cause women living in close proximity to often sync cycles. So that could get interesting. My daughter was definitely very irritable this morning, but she had to wake up earlier for choir today, so who knows?

I went through the clothes & belts in 2 drawers of my chest of drawers. Mostly shorts, workout pants and tops, sports bras. I found plenty to get rid of, mostly shorts. They fit me, but ugh! Even with proper shirts, some of those shorts looked horrible on me, just the wrong cut. I have no idea why I bought them in the first place. IDK, maybe my midsection re-shaped a bit after that ulcer surgery, not to mention giving birth (definitely made my hips wider, not a lot, but enough that some things don't fit unless I am way too super skinny or fit but look weird).

Been looking for ways to cut the grocery budget this morning, but bipolar & budgeting does not mix well with me. The more manic I am, the worse the spending. And I hate cooking, but it would save money, for example, to bake cookies versus buy them from a store bakery. I am not a bad cook, but not a super good and adventurous one either, like my youngest sister. OMG, she could have trained to be a chef. I just don't even bother trying to replicate any of her recipes. With new recipes, sometimes I have luck, sometimes not. I don't enjoy cooking much either. Plus, both H and my daughter are picky eaters, I think H the pickiest of all.

Need to find some lunch and eat now, getting close to 1 PM.