My arm hurts and I feel sad, depressed, lonely, afraid.

I have low self esteem and body image/confidence issues. It feels impossible and overwhelming to trust a man and let them in for a relationship. I know it will hurt to love again, I also know how to overcome these issues, but I won't move on.I stay stuck,because I fear getting hurt and I am frightened to experience my own personal power. Same reason why I avoid writing or art work, I fear failure and I fear success. Being in limbo is preferable.