Not ready to share just yet.
I think it could be therapeutic too.
Before I identified myself with anorexia and overexercising and depression and bipolar and a basketload of other mental illnesses, I mostly identified myself as being a reader and writer. I was smart, yes, but it wasn't who I was; I didn't entangle my identity with my intelligence. I was a writer and a reader, until I went away to college and started my long journey into the forays of mental illness.
Connecting back to the person I was before all the MI issues, not just the reading, most especially the writing, feels good. Writing is an outlet for me; I know this, so does the stupid hypergraphia, apparently.
A lot of things in my childhood sucked. But thinking about reading & writing, most especially, writing, escaping into stories I could completely control, makes me feel good.
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, anorexia, panic disorder, ADHD
Seroquel, Cymbalta, propanolol, buspirone, Trazodone, gabapentin, lamotrigine, hydroxyzine,
There's a crack in everything. That is how the light gets in.
--Leonard Cohen
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