Yes. I struggle a lot with this and we work on it in therapy a lot. Probably as much as we work on anything at this point. I do have OCD which doesn't help but the thoughts often have some relationship with something I regret in my life, something I wish was different (like wishing I could work), blaming myself for things, etc. I also get a complicated auditory hallucinationy thing that is intrusive and hard to define; I'm not sure if my doctors have decided if it is hallucinations or not. We tend to call it "the thing". The thoughts happen more if in an episode but happen out of it too; they can happen when I'm actually quite happy.

I HATE these thoughts. I'm so sorry you are dealing with them and hope you get better with them.