I’ve just had a glass of wine, it hasn’t helped much. And I have 2 diazepam to take tonight.. I told the last doctor I consulted I’d almost given up on them (doctors) She wasn’t rude (unlike some) but was rushed and just prescribed another med, in a class of meds which I’ve been consistently allergic to, the whole packet is somewhere in our cave many months later, I do have a repeat prescription of benzos and another med which I think does nothing. So I’m surviving. I wish it was so that the system over here wasn’t so spectacularly broken. They blame us for being “damaged” and pile the labels on. But it’s the System which is broken, dishonest and completely ****ed up. Maybe in a different part of this forest, less populated .. (far away from our cave) it isn’t quite as bad.

One exceptionally bad doctor not all that long ago wanted to refer me to the ....cringe.. CMHT. But said she didn’t think therapy would help. WTF. She was ghastly in every way. Scary bad. I never went back. Fortunately the next doctor said I was a normal intelligent bear and she didn’t recommend the community mental unhealth team not that being intelligent has anything to do with MI.. but they enjoy their opinions..