Feeling heavy.

I am sick of my boss. She's snobby, or maybe you call it "hoity-toity". Comes across as the person who smiles and fakes being nice, while behind the facade she is a total b****. Other people have noticed how she acts and have said things to me... We just have to deal with it obviously, but this week, I kind of snapped at her. (as professionally as I could be) I'm a loyal person to my team and I'll gladly go head to head with authority to fight for what's right, and work isn't all about "how we will look to executive team"...that's how she is. ALL THE TIME! Makes me feel physically ill sometimes to be near that kind of energy.

I can tell she doesn't know how to take me sometimes, but she does appreciate me, I know, she's said it... after all, she does rely on me, and needs me to make her "look good". ha

Blah... enough about work. I am feeling impulsive again though...that I want to just quit and find a job in something easy that doesn't even require much education.

I think I need to give up the idea of going to NP school. Might not be worth the stress. Alas, I've been on this pendulum for a few years now.

Medication being adjusted down starting tomorrow. I went to the pdoc today.