antidepressants are known to ruin sex lives. Maybe talk to your doctor about it. I am not a doctor but your feelings are probably normal. I don't know what to say about this situation but honestly do not let a voice belittle you and decide what you could turn into. You are entitled to make your own decision. If you wanna love a man then be with a man and feel secure. If you are attracted with women then you take that route if you feel comfortable around women. I won't judge you but do not let a voice decide who you really are and how you feel and defy as a person.